At a phase professionally where nothing seems to be going the way it should. Was looking forward for an exciting initiative which apparently got dumped the last minute. Counted big on it since everything seemed set and fine. The profile and project excited me too.
Project less since a few weeks and trust me not working on anything concrete drains me out. I have been sulking about it since long….. I need work ….not having anything worthwhile to do brings out the worst in me…. I can really be a pain ( poor S)…and its been quite a while….am hurt, upset, drained and my confidence levels have hit rock bottom…. till a few hours ago I was all set to step into something splendid but just now got to know that this one is a miss too…. :(…and this is a shocker…..a major one at that…..
I am absolutely directionless and I hate it. I take my job bloody seriously and it means a lot to me. And this unsettlement stumps me…..having no control scares me…
But am a gigantic believer in hardwork and destiny ….. and eagerly waiting for my moment…. wishing it isn’t very far away…..I’ve really had enough…..