AND I AM TRULY LIVING IT UP !

The most beautiful people we have known
are those who have known defeat, known suffering,
known struggle, known loss,
and have found their way out of the depths.
These persons have an appreciation,
…a sensitivity and an understanding of life
that fills them with compassion,
gentleness, and a deep loving concern.
Beautiful people do not just happen….
– Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

came across this today morning and stuck by the truth and simplicity of this statement…..

Sitting at my cosy awesome cubicle which has a huge window with a view ,a happy and bright succulent at my desk staring warmly , pearls of laughter of happy colleagues, a satisfying and excited feeling of this new job and pondering over this quote……brought in this huge desire to save this moment for posterity ….its a memory made ! and such a happy happy one with no particular reason……and isn’t that beautiful ? to be blissful and happy with all the routine around yet the moment made spectacular just by this commonality…..
I want to extend this typicality ! Gimme Gimme more !

• The beautiful Basant festival celebrated in full fervor.

• Birthday is around the corner and we shall be traveling on that day and this has been a long pending wish. So the happiness and excitement is pretty evident already.

• All the shopping is the birthday shopping…..and hence guilt free….been picking bits and pieces from January and its still going strong….that also means the bank balance is diminishing at an astonishing pace.

• A very dear cousin is getting engaged and I wish him and her all the best in life….. Will pray for their happiness and perhaps shed a tear or two…yes am highly emotional that way.

• BIL getting married next week and that brings travel, family, and dressing up. Looking forward for the wedding….meeting everybody….and of course adorning the saris ….there is a kancheepuram , maheshwari, uppada, leheriya , mangalagiri, kota on the plan…..and before anybody goes saying that’s one too many…..I just had one new sari for my own wedding….its time to balance it out….now if only I can drape them beautifully so that I can do justice to the gorgeous weaves…

• No carrying of expensive jewellery since this is an out of the town wedding and I hate being bothered about all such sundry. I just want to have fun, gorge on food and have a great time in general. So yes its costume jewels all the way and I care a damn about being judged…. I just like being myself….

• An impending business visit to the US of A which would have played havoc with all these plans had been cancelled and I am extremely glad about that.

• If plan goes well, will be meeting a very dear friend. I really wish this works out.

I haven’t changed much as person in my beliefs, values , priorities and such but still there is a giant leap in how I react and how I handle things …….If in 2000 someone told me that I’d end up today in the present state of mind that would have been the biggest joke….yet here I am and loving myself……and whatever highs and lows have hit me am extremely happy how I’ve turned out….yes, I really am super happy about how I have ended up as a person and I can love myself…isn’t that a very beautiful space to be ? And it brings such inherent happiness that I can share the positivity around too….
I am not too full of myself…but like what I made of myself….

Life is what happens when one is busy making plans of it….and life happened quite a bit for me…. I have seen deep lows….and today thank those lows since they shaped me more…..I wouldn’t have ever dreamt that I could challenge each low and emerge out of it with a major high….yes, it did happen….and if you see the confident, so sure of what to do with life and what one wants, in front of you today I dedicate it to those lows….the grit and determination which I never ever imagined I possessed surfaced and surprised me when I hit rock bottom……and the experience I carry today gives me the strength to deal with whatever life throws…am not saying I don’t get hurt or sad…I do of course….but then there is nothing or no one who can put me down so much so that it depresses me to a level where in I blame myself…..

The biggest hurdle I crossed this decade it to stop imagining and viewing and understanding myself from somebody else’s point of view and what a lesson I have learnt……today am a free person with rights, dignity and responsibility.

I live my life…just mine…and how hard can that be. And to do that with no botheration whether people out there in the world conform to my choices or not ….it sets me free….and for me truly defines what freedom means….