April 16, 2008
Its been a while since I visited a hairdresser….I was regrowing my hair after a bad haircut…and was also on the lookout for a good hairdresser…..and I found an excellent one today….she is highly recommended by my friends at the aerobics studio too……
And voila, I’ve got a great cut…this time I wanted to experiment….And she did prove it….. After a good 45 mins she transformed me….from the shabana azmi of the 80’s ( thats how I had been looking offlate) to a very stylish uber cool woman….I am simply loving it !
Apart from this, I got loads of advise on styling and setting techniques that can be carried out easily at home….
I still have all the shit load of work to do at office….but I’m excited and delighted…and can’t wait to go home….to admire myself…. 
April 15, 2008
I had been off the radar for an insane amount of time…that doesn’t mean I budged from the goal…
I did all that I could do most of the time….had healthy meals whenever possible….but work has been so overwhelming that we ate out at alarming intervals…though we picked the healthiest option available..but exercise suffered…..late night working and extensive traveling took their toll…though I didn’t put on any weight….I missed the high and the muscle tone exercise gives….the confidence…the well being feeling….
Its getting back to normalcy now….and we are back to our workouts more regularly….
After the session today we had an impromptu chat with our trainer ( now a friend too) G.
As usual…I went on sulking that I need to lose weight ……….
Here is an excerpt from the conversation.
G : Hey, from the next time pick up heavier weights since you are comfortable with the current set.
ME : yeah, I’d want to…since I have flabby arms…. bat wings ….
(actually my upperarms are disproportionate with the rest of my body…the fat always rests on
them….its in the family..even while I was painfully thin this relation continued…frightening
me from donning sleeveless tops)
G : Just work on them…since thats the only area you really need to tone up.
ME : Hey, I need to lose here and here and here ……
G : No, for me all is ok except the arms…
ME: Oh no….I need to lose more…
G : well since am a friend let me honestly tell you something…you look good this way….and if you lose more…I feel you will not look as good as now….thin doesn’t suit everybody….and each one is different….
ME : ?????
G : yeah, not all look pretty when thin, and you are healthy….not fat….
After this talk….I had been thinking about it….Well, I am currently a few pounds extra… am neither fat nor slim….a little over average….being an Indian I have my curves…and I need to tone up…..the tyres,handles,muffin top dont ever look good….
Its all together a different point that now-a-days anything other than anorexic is considered overweight in India ( courtesy: magazines,media) and I might be obese from their angle
I am healthy and fine now…but want to lose weight and I fret a lot about it…I want to tone up and wear all the lovely clothes I wish to…I have never admitted this to anybody other than S,my husband…and he bears with all my sulking…..and comforts me all the time…such a sweetheart he is.
But this bothers me quite a lot….Is the weight bothering my mind rather than my body ?
Should I be happy that am fit and fine though not slim ? And as everyone around me says…Do I look good this way ? But I dont think so….. I have always told myself….Rupa,you can only look good when you are slim…..
Am happy, sad, confused…all at the same time…..its an identity crisis…..and am pouring this out to all you guys since you my friends are familiar with this side ….and I feel extremely comfortable sharing it with you all……
April 15, 2008
Well, I did write a few weeks ago about the hectic schedules at work. Last 2 weeks it hit an all-time high ….and left me terribly frustrated…..
We had the CEO visiting us with a bunch of clients from the US…and preparations and presentations added up to the daily work which was already abundant….I know its a part of my job and have nothing against it…but what bothers me is the faking attached to it…I truly understand that we need to come up with our best …afterall clients are the ones who approve the much needed moolah…but I absolutely hate it when presentations become so unreal that they end up being gross lies.
I lead a project here and hence was in a meeting with them for a couple of hours…and it sucked big time…chimerical and dishonest was the theme…..and I loathed being a part of it…though I have attended such meetings in my previous jobs….this was way too cheesy and devious…..and I eagerly waited for it to come to an end. I always enjoyed my work and loved my earlier employers ….but at this organization its been a bumpyride…..I have to wait and watch how long will I tick here…..
